Go time. #ArtForLife #AFL15
Music has my heart.
I Sing. I Write. I Model.
#Latergram from me and @djkalisemo’s performance at the #SugarBar last Saturday. Many thanks to everyone who supported!
Get his project Unfinished Thoughts. Dope #music, plus I’m on two of the tracks 😊 #MorganTaylorJones #livemusic #music #nyc #TheMood #singer
Today I had an epiphany. What triggered it? God blessed me with something I didn’t expect but needed. And it got me thinking…
If God continues to show up and show out in my life when I don’t always fully trust Him, imagine what He could/would do for me if I really put all my eggs in the “Faith” basket.
Don’t take that statement for a moment of selfishness. Nor a moment of being egotistical, full of myself, or narcissistic. It was just a true lightbulb moment. The things that God does for me now, even when I don’t expect them or don’t initially think He can/will do, He does. So just think if I really surrendered myself to Him…what He would do then? Whew. I know it’d be awesome things.
Just some personal food for thought that I wanted to share and that I thought someone else can relate to. It definitely got me thinkin’ today; and I’m sure will continue to do so.
Today marks two years since I moved to New York. Both so much and feelings of so little have happened since I made that trip with two suitcases and a one way ticket two summers ago.
I could talk about the hurt, frustration, confusion, loneliness, times of being broke, sadness, feelings of defeat, and more. Or I could mention the joy, happiness, excitement, blushing, exhilarating excitement, and liberation this city embodies and brings out of me. But instead I’ll talk about the non stop pushing I have to remind myself to do.
…to 2007. When my biggest concern was how much lunch money my parents would spot me for the week. When my friends and I sped back to school to make sure we made it back to class on time on our way back from open lunch (off campus). When I hoped my senior graduation photo looked good enough for the year book. Take me back to when my friend would text me that she was on the way to pick me up, honked twice once she pulled up to my house, and we’d head to Greensboro at 10pm on a random summer night because there was nothing to do in Durham…but more so just because we felt like it.To when one of my biggest teenage decisions of that summer was deciding between getting the belly button piercing or the tattoo. (Bet you’re now wondering which one I decided on. Ha.) When I still lived at home and thoughts of having enough money for rent, food, or transportation were questions that never crossed my mind.
…to 2001. When I walked into my parents room and told them I wanted to be a singer. And said it with such confidence and conviction that no one could change my mind or talk me out of it. I miss that fearless 12 year old. Take me back to that night. Take me back to her. More so, bring her to me now. Because if you really catch what I’m saying, there’s major difference and significance in taking me back to her versus bringing her to me now. Think about it…
Just take me back to the early to mid 2000s when the sureness of what I wanted to do was the solid, concrete foundation of which I stood upon. Fearless. Unchanged. Couldn’t be swayed. Unapologetic. Take me back to the mentality of the teenage me who told her parents she wasn’t going to college right after high school because she needed to move to New York to pursue her dreams. And didn’t sway from that. Take me back to a mind of pureness, undeterred, not clouded, nor jaded by the ways and obligations of the world. Take me back to my own fearlessness that I once possessed.
Even if only for a moment of reminder/refresher/rejuvenation, just take me back.
Rest peacefully Granddaddy… As my family and I said our final physical goodbyes to my grandfather yesterday, I was reminded that his spirit and legacy will forever live within all of us. To everyone who reached out during this time, thank you. Your calls, texts, prayers, and more are extremely appreciated. Granddaddy, you are loved immensely and will forever remain in our hearts 💙